My self-esteem seems to be stuck at an all-time-low every day of my life till this point came where I don’t know already what is happening to me in these past few days. Depression really hit me so bad. I’m in the part of the roller coaster where its way is going down and my system is about to breakdown. Understanding what triggers my depression is hard to the point that I am losing interest to everything I love doing before. Always, always having a bad atmosphere inside of me. All I know is I want to go back to being a happy person soon. How could I cheer up other people and give them a smile in their face when me and myself can’t even do that. I don’t know whom to talk to anymore. Yes I have this good people around me but I’m afraid they can’t stand by my side this time. It feels like that I am just annoying them with my own stupid dramas. And all I can tell them is that I am not well and I fucking don’t know the reason. Plus things were getting to be so much disappointing whenever I need a friend that I wish I could count on. But this is my own problem, dealing with me and myself. I want to soak up some good vibes! I know I have enough hours in a day to get myself out of this angst rut. But where should I start?